These are the days…

July 3, 2011 – 2:51 pm

These are the days when you can’t laugh
These are the days when you want to cry, but nothing comes out

She left all of my clothes at the Washington Blvd Metro Station
I was late picking her up from the laundry mat and she had enough

She was always willing to do the things I hated, laundry, clean up around the

and you’d think that would be good enough, but it never was

and I tried to be that guy, but I was never really that guy

I know what she wanted and I never gave it to her

My selfish heart, never believing in us, never believing in myself, never believing in anything

I know what she wanted and I wouldn’t give it to her
I just sit on my ass, complaining, pointing, pushing, ignoring…

I don’t know why I didn’t give her what she wanted
Maybe because she deserved to have it
Maybe I’m just an asshole like I’ve been told…

I don’t think anyone deserves to be with a bitter, lost, crazy man, who will never understand what they have until it’s completely beaten down to the point of resentment.

When I tell people that I need to be alone, it’s not need that keeps me here, it’s kindness for the other person, who I know I will beat down to the point of no return…and returning is usually something they never do.

Never once did I seek out to hurt those closest to me
but somehow, I never really try to stop it from happening either    Send article as PDF   

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