Archive for January, 2007

Life passes you by

Tuesday, January 30th, 2007

Life passes you by. You look back in time and regrets outweigh any other memory. Emotionally you're in hell. Physically you're in hell. No one was there most of the time and the ones that were I've turned against me. I wake only to anticipate ...

Los Angeles vs Los Angeles

Monday, January 29th, 2007

I've been going to Los Angeles an average of every other week. I head for downtown, check into the Stillwell Hotel on 9th and Grand, happy to pay the $49 a night for a clean room with a bathroom. It's not the $5 a week Kerouac would talking ...

Tour of my balls

Monday, January 22nd, 2007

Shit, I didn’t know he called you. Dude, it was out of control. I literally laughed myself to sleep. I could not stop laughing. So, yes, I went on the tour...where do I start. No actual Bukowski information was revealed. It is a promotional campaign for “Mike the PoeT” who ...

a young girl in Paris

Sunday, January 21st, 2007

It was the first day of the seventh grade. Everyone was shuffled into the gym for orientation, laughing, looking around, adapting to the smell of the halls that would become the dull interior expected to inspire and invigorate the minds of an already lost generation. I remember looking ...

The beginning…

Thursday, January 11th, 2007

Is it foolish for us to believe that we can ever be free, when we can't even escape the heat of the sun or the depth of night? We only believe what we can see, smell, touch, taste or feel, or at most, we believe in the imagination of man but ...

very personal ad

Wednesday, January 10th, 2007

I've been using CL for quite some time.  As a result I've had some great experiences which I'm thankful for.  Lately it seems CL is getting inundated with the same kind of variety you would expect from pop culture television these days, which is to say that it seems the ...

the last tranny

Monday, January 8th, 2007

I saw a tranny at rite-aid, working at the picture counter and I remember thinking hmm, this is the first tranny I actually believe.  It’s not just some drug-induced, self-indulgent psychological episode.  This person was a man and really wanted to be a wo-man.  I learned in insomnia cases this ...

crawling toward nothing

Monday, January 8th, 2007

I'm on mushrooms. I can feel the anticipation running through my veins...but there is nothing. I have intense feelings of wanting to focus on something mundane. There is energy but where is the story man? I want to let go but I don't know how and ...