Archive for the ‘Everything’ Category

Perfect Ambivalence

Friday, May 9th, 2014

For some, love is just a moment and outside of that moment, it ceases to exist. Love can be taken as easy as given and this feels sane to the one in control. For me, if you feel my love, you have been given a piece of my ...

Sometimes need

Wednesday, January 29th, 2014

Sometimes you need to be a little less greedy Sometimes you need to be a little less anxious Sometimes you need to be happy with how things turned out Sometimes you need to shut the fuck up and just breath Sometimes you need to drink Sometimes you need to sing Sometimes you need to do drugs Sometimes ...

Mi Vida Fuck

Monday, August 19th, 2013

Thirty-seven years old a few days ago. The family was here to mostly go shopping and pretend that their duties of seeing me were fulfilled. I didn't spend much time with them. I found myself angry that even on my birthday, it seemed to be more about them and less ...

Mentally Drunk

Friday, July 26th, 2013

I go to the bar and I see the same people all the time. I think, they don't see me every day, but every time I'm in this bar, I see them. They're dedicated. Each face has its own story. Each face looks at me and ...

Drowning

Wednesday, July 24th, 2013

If I was given an opportunity to see my life from multiple perspectives, one my current life, second, a life with success, money, happiness, beauty, and finally, a life where I'm a burnt out junkie with scars on my arms and no food in my stomach, but I have a ...

what they don’t know

Saturday, July 20th, 2013

and what they don't know when I scream at the top of my lungs I want to die and that there is no peace in this continuation is that I want this life more than anything and I don't want this hell without silence and what they ...

Quality

Monday, July 8th, 2013

There is no quality. No one gives a shit about quality. No one gives a shit about authenticity. My girlfriend was annoyed by the fact that I didn't know anything about Twilight. "I know it's a shitty movie with pretty boy and girl actors and it's loosely based ...

Fishing for…

Sunday, June 16th, 2013

I seem an expert at destroying everything sane, everything normal, everything unsettled. I can't stop myself from saying too much or saying too little. I can't get anything right and I have an uncontrollable predication to fuck up all that doesn't need to be fucked. I can't stop my brain from going too ...

Eileen for President

Thursday, May 23rd, 2013

When I think of you, there is no distance Time has lost its battle Everything is here and now and there's no place I'd rather be   I used to dream of more fortunate days where everything works and nothing hurts but that was just fantasy driven by the instinct to continue on this path I have paved, ...

The six shooter and the raven’s feather

Friday, April 26th, 2013

Sometimes we forget. We forget what it was like before the darkness consumed. We forget what it was like before the dead nerves and constipated mind. There is this thing called happiness and you may only get a fractured glimpse...but hold on to it for as long as you can ...